Sorry to start off a whole new blog with a depressing post, but I can't help it. This feeling is just eating up my insides and I can't go a minute without thinking about what's going to happen to me. Im sick, tired, and frustrated from fighting through these tears and crying my imaginary balls out. I mean, yes, I've no one to blame but myself, but it is fair that others have to suffer the same fate as me? Or worse, get blamed for what I've done. Come on people, if you want to look down on me, go ahead. I'll show you how many fucks I give.

But from what I know, it's better to take one step back and run on full force, then progressing at a really slow rate. But this really sucks. People say nothing's gonna change and they'll stick to their promise. Hah I've heard that before somewhere, but how did it actually turn out? No, Im not going to face this anymore. The only way out is up now. I take this year as a learning experience and an eye-opener and my eyes shall never ever be closed again, till the day I die.